Wednesday, June 30, 2010




Hey girls,
So Tuesday night this kid I used to date in the past drove 2 1/2 hours just to take me out after work, so I did eat a quesadilla which I think is around 700 calories. So I had about 1,000 calories Tuesday.
Wednesday I did have some ritz crackers and some bits of honey, so thats about 200 calories.
And now we're on today. I had a doctors appt to get shots and they weighed me, I was so nervous to see what I actually weigh... It was 138... what I orignially thought it was going to be. So I've just had some flintstone calcium gummies, and vitamin water.
But do you notice how some days you have just such a motivation to not eat anything and somedays even if you know your bigger you want to just break down and eat. Its so strange cuz I want to be thin more than so many other things in my life, and I love the feel of an empty stomach but today I've just been wanting to eat... Not good. I've been trying to look at my thinspo albums saved on my Ipod to help kill the cravings but their still there. UGH! That river raft trip is this weekend, I can't afford to eat.

Monday, June 28, 2010


Was watching cold moutain last night so...



Always look at Hilary Duff thinspo from 2005-2006Katherine Mcphee has been looking thinner as well


Kate and Natalie thinspo

I have always thought that Kate Beckinsale is so pretty and I love that she still has curves but is also still considered skinny and thin.





I have always thought that Natalie Portman is one of the preetiest celebrities out there, I mean she still looked pretty even with a SHAVED head! I also love her petite-ness. The photo underneath she was around the same age that I am now. I would love to have that stomach with lines going down it.




Sunday, June 27, 2010

Megan's weight loss... its inspiring me.





There's been tons of pictures of Megan going to the gym, you can tell she's eating less and working out a ton more. I'm loving the gap between her legs, her slender neck and her thin bony knees. Megan's someone I want to not like, but I can't lie I think she's pretty, and lately on the slender side.

Monday, June 21, 2010